Slowly Losing it!
Today is one of those simple reminders to myself. Don't take little things in life for granted. When I'm not working it's nearly imposable to get out of bed. I spend so much energy during the week trying to feel better during work that when I have time off I can barely move. The constant nausea is almost crippling. I just want to feel normal again. I want to get up and clean everything and play with my son at the park but how can I when I feel like I need to blow chunks every two seconds. Feeling normal again is all I wish for. It's so depressing. I just sit on my butt and watch everything I've worked so hard for slowly going down the drain. At first I was understanding and very patient thinking that it will blow over soon but now that I look back it's been four months of struggling that has no light at the end of the tunnel. Or at least that's the way I feel. I know I'm hurting my husband and my son. Constantly being shut up in the house not being able to be the out-going family that we usually are. I finally crawled off the couch to bathe myself so that I can take my son to see his good friend who just came back home from grandma's at Fort Benning. I feel weak and overall just blah. Just hoping I can feel better just for this brief period it would make me and my family so happy even if it's just for a moment.
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